Strong Enough

We just came back from vacation yesterday. We had a wonderful, relaxing time together. I will post some pictures soon. 

But today it's back to reality. 

And my reality is that I have two children who live in an orphanage in Africa. 

Our adoption is at a stand still. No movement for 10 weeks now. 

To say that I am sad would be a gross understatement. 

I am breaking at the seams. 

I told my friend today that I haven't blogged lately because I have nothing good to say. 

I don't. 

I am not strong enough to do this. 

And I was in tears today when this song came on the radio.




What a precious song for my soul today. 

I am not strong enough to do this. But HE is and HE has called me to keep walking. 

I know so many friends who are going through hard, hard times. Please let this encourage your soul today. 

Wherever you are, HE is there, carrying you. 

Love is worth waiting for

That's my thought for today. 

The waiting is hard. 

Ok, it's unbearable at times. 

Paralyzing even. 

I have never felt so helpless in my whole life. 

Even when we were fighting for Jacob's life, at least we felt like we were in the fight. 

There are no words some days for how this feels. 

Which is why there are no blog posts. 

but......... there is LOVE. 

Love for these children. 

Love for each other.

Love for God. 

Love for His plan. 

And so we wait...........

Courageous

Hubalicious and I had an awesome date night with some friends this weekend.


We went to the premier of Courageous.


Talk about a call to action.


Tissues are a good idea.


You must see this movie! 

Anonymous

We got an unbelievable email this week. 

The folks at Promise 686 emailed us to let us know about a donation that had come in for our account. 

A $5000.00 donation. 

Yes, that's 5 THOUSAND dollars!!!

Immediately, I emailed back to ask who gave it. I wanted to know who to thank. 

It was an anonymous donation. 

We hope to show our thanks by being obedient. By continuing down this road even when it gets difficult. To obey and follow God even when it doesn't make sense. To be patient and rest in God's timing. 

And above all to thank God for being the author of this awesome story. 

As of late.....

As of late...... I have decided to join a women's bible study. I am really excited because it has been about 3 years since I have been involved in one. There's nothing quite like unpacking God's word with other ladies. And the fact that it's while the older kids are in school and there's child care for the youngest, well that's just icing on the cake. 

As of late......I have really been praying about how I can help the folks in my life "get" what we're doing. When God lights a fire in your soul, you will burst if you don't share it. 

As of late...... I am getting very nervous about leaving my children when we go to Africa. I know God's in control. I know they will be fine. I know that they understand why we're going. Even so, I have never  left them for more than a couple of days and I am having to work through all of that. 

As of late......I have made a commitment to learn how to use our SLR camera. We have had it since Dec and I don't know anything about it. I want to take some beautiful pictures of the twins homeland, so I am diving in. 

As of late...... I am seeing what a spiritual battle adoption is. With every bit of progress, Satan is upping the heat. This is not for wimps. 

So, what about you? What's happening in your heart?

Feel free to link up to As of Late, over at Critty Joy's As of Late 

Flitterbugs fundraiser extended!!!

If you haven't already, please check out this blogger friend of mine who is serving us through a fundraiser. 

She's such a blessing to us. Their story, is part of ours. I found her blog late one night and saw that they had adopted twins through our domestic agency last year. It was her story that prompted us to pray about opening up our hearts to a boy AND A GIRL. I made my hubby watch their video and we contacted our agency the next day to tell them that we would love boy/girl twins. Later that week, we saw pictures from across the world of boy/girl twins who needed a family. 

She began sewing to fund her adoption and has continued to sew to help families raise money for missions and adoptions. 

She has decided that it's time to hang up the needle for a while, so you should get these great outfits while you still can. 

Through the weekend, she will be donating 80% of her profits to our adoption. 

Flitterbugs Fundraiser

I am linking up over at Storing up Treasures. She is doing a series called Fo Realz.


Blogging for real life.


I am loud. I am passionate. My family knows where I stand. So do my neighbors. Lol but seriously I am not a quiet, humble little wife and momma. I am more like a loud bull in a china shop. I am fiery and fierce. Mostly in a good way. Not always. But I am working on it.

Edited to add some examples:

My voice travels, a lot. So when we need the girls, I always call them. My hubby will call me from what I am doing just to call them for him.

I am passionate about everything. It's not uncommon to see me crying or semi-yelling about something I care about. Sometimes my kids think I am upset with them when I truly am not. I am really trying to work on that.

I embarrass my husband at restauants. I am just loud. So I will be talking about something and my voice will start carrying. As I get more involved, my voice gets louder. And I used to get upset when he would shush me because I felt like he wasn't listening. But really he didn't want everyone in the place to be listening.

In my defense, my family is loud too. When you get us all together, you need earplugs. Lol