Monday, November 30, 2009

How great is our God!!!

The last few weeks have been very trying. In addition to Vivian's breathing issues, Tim has had a neck problem that for the last week has been causing numbness in his arms, dizziness and nausea. The dr thinks that his brain stem is being pinched by his vertebrae. We don't have traditional health insurance, so anything that we spend up until our (high) deductible is out of pocket. That has been causing stress for Tim and I have been very anxious for the past week wondering and waiting to find out what is wrong with my husband.

I want to share something AWESOME that God has done.

I was opening our mail (that has been in a pile for a few days) and I found a card addressed to Mr and Mrs Brown with this note inside....

Tim and Audrey,

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any troubles with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. 2 Cor 1:3-4

A little gift from God

In the card was $300 in cash.

I picked up the phone to call Tim. He answered and immediately got a call and put me on hold. When he came back, I quickly told him about the note. He was silent on the other end for a min and then said, "The call that I got was the dr's office telling me that the ct scan is scheduled for tomorrow and it will cost $300."

Sing with me.... How Great is Our God!!!!!

Thursday, November 12, 2009

It's AMAZING....

What a little sleep will do.

I have had a couple nights of (Niquil induced) good sleep and I feel like a different person! Vivian has slept in her bed the last two nights (fairly quietly) and she has sleep pretty well.

We went for a 2nd opinion yesterday and the ENT took one look at hers (and Leah's) tonsils and said they have extremely large tonsils that aren't that way due to sickness, they are just genetically large. So he recommends having them out. The thing is that we do have to wait for Vivian to turn three or else she would have to be admitted to the hospital. So I am planning for 12/28, the Monday after Christmas. I think she will be fine until then as long as she doesn't get sick.

So there is an end in sight!!

Saturday, November 7, 2009

Trials, they are a plenty

Well, let's just say we are in a "season of trials."

We went to the ENT and they said it will be about 6 weeks before they determine if Vivian's tonsils will come out, after allergy testing and medication. So...... 6 more weeks of making sure that she is breathing at night and making sure that she doesn't get sick and make her condition worse.
In addition to.....

-Leah who continues to not sleep well at night. By that I mean she gets up 5-6 night a week, resulting in a very sleepy and cranky girl every day at about 5pm. We have found out now that she too has obstructive sleep apnea and may need her tonsils out.

-Major issues on the business side of life. With very little notice, a major account lost due to no fault of our own, at the worst possible time of the year and this blow was provided by "friends" of ours.

- The main waterline to our house was run over and broken. Thankfully Tim was able to fix that pretty quickly.

-Week number two of sickness for me. Complete with ZERO voice which has been fun with 4 kids. Add this on top of my thyroid being off and you have a mama that can barely function.

Through all of this and more, I am being constantly reminded of the song that I sang at church after our son Jacob died. I have even arranged to sing it tomorrow at church. But I will most likely have to postpone, since I have no voice. Tell me that satan is not just working overtime on us. But I will cling to this song and others as I walk through these things that God has ordained for me. Pretty or Ugly, Fun or Not, God has ordained this path and I will walk through it. And try to learn everything that I can from Him while I am walking.

The pathway is broken
And The signs are unclear
And I don't know the reason why You brought me here
But just because You love me the way that You do
I'm gonna walk through the valley
If You want me to

Cause I'm not who I was
When I took my first step
And I'm clinging to the promise You're not through with me yet
so if all of these trials bring me closer to you
Then I will walk through the fire
If You want me to

It may not be the way I would have chosen
When you lead me through a world that's not my home
But You never said it would be easy
You only said I'd never go alone

So When the whole world turns against me
And I'm all by myself
And I can't hear You answer my cries for help
I'll remember the suffering Your love put You through
And I will go through the valley If You want me to
Cause when I cross over Jordan, I'm gonna scream, I'm gonna shout
I'm gonna look into your eyes and say, "You never let me down, so take me on the pathway that leads me home to you, and I will walk through the valley, If you want me to. "
by: Ginny Owens