The Brown Brigade: August 2006

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

I have changed my mind again

I don't know why I can't make a decision these days. We began the co-op a coupld of weeks ago, and now I have decided (with the help of my husband) that is it not for us, at least not this year. I think I under estimated how difficult it would be for me having two toddlers of my own, to keep the toddler class all day. I came home on Monday feeling like I got hit by a truck. I am almost fully recovered two days later.

I am really struggling with why God allows me to make these pretty big decisions and then seems to show me that I made the wrong one. Is it character building or is it flakiness? I really don't think I am wimping out but in the back of my mind, I feel like I am. I am blessed to have this older child who is VERY go with the flow and doesn't skip a beat with my decision changes. I hope that the Lord sanctifies me enough in the next few years that I have a better handle on things when Madison gets older. She is definitely NOT as go with the flow as Mackenzie.

Anyway I keep wondering is this part of being an adult or is that I can think clearly anymore.

I was pondering this as I was talking to the man from My Father's World for the third time today. My Father's World is the curriculum that I bought in May for homeschooling, after much time spent researching curriculums and talking with my husband. Then when we got accepted to the co-op, they were doing different material so I wanted to exchange my material for something that would be more suited to go along with co-op. So I called him up and he said I would be able to do that but to think on it and make sure it's what i wanted to do. So last week I finally made my decision to return it and called him up again to let him know I was sending it. He got the package on Friday. On Monday evening we decided we were not doing the co-op. So I was just going to let it ride and do what I had already committed to doing with the exchange. Then he called today to get more info and I mentioned that I had decided against the co-op. So I have now paid $30 to ship my curriculum that I purchased in May (saving on shipping because I bought it at a curriculum fair) back and forth to MO twice. That was a real way to save some $$.

Wednesday, August 9, 2006

We are officially a homeschooling family

We started school on Monday. We are doing a classical, christian co-op that met on Monday for the first time. On the way it became very clear to me that I am now a homeschool teacher. It hit me like a ton of bricks. This is my life.

We began the day by Madison refusing to even get out of the car at co-op. Fun times. We get in and had a hard time finding where we were supposed to be. Madison is actually in my class with the 2 and 3 year olds, but that didn't stop her from crying anyway. Leah decided it seemed fun so she joined in. We got Mackenzie to her class and finally got to ours. At first I was told I would be the lead teacher because the lead teacher was gone. So I've got kids that I don't know coming in the door and my two clinging to me for dear life. YEAH!! One of the ladies that I know came in and asked if she could pray for me. I just started bawling crying. Love those hormones!!! So anyway the prayer was great and really helped me get my head back in the game. The teacher did show up so I wasn't on my own. Leah stayed with us because frankly, she is not 15 months, she is 4. And she was sitting doing crafts just like the rest of the kids. Madison had a great time too.

Most importantly Mackenzie seemed to ease right in to this new setting. She does know a couple of the kids already, so that helps. She is very excited about what we are studying, which by the way is the ancient time period. So all in all it was a success. I know it will be stressful to get everyone up and going by 8am every Monday but I keep reminding myself of something a wise friend told me the other day. I am not homeschooling. I could never do this on my own. God is doing this through me. And with the armor, we wont fail.