Wednesday, August 23, 2006

I have changed my mind again

I don't know why I can't make a decision these days. We began the co-op a coupld of weeks ago, and now I have decided (with the help of my husband) that is it not for us, at least not this year. I think I under estimated how difficult it would be for me having two toddlers of my own, to keep the toddler class all day. I came home on Monday feeling like I got hit by a truck. I am almost fully recovered two days later.

I am really struggling with why God allows me to make these pretty big decisions and then seems to show me that I made the wrong one. Is it character building or is it flakiness? I really don't think I am wimping out but in the back of my mind, I feel like I am. I am blessed to have this older child who is VERY go with the flow and doesn't skip a beat with my decision changes. I hope that the Lord sanctifies me enough in the next few years that I have a better handle on things when Madison gets older. She is definitely NOT as go with the flow as Mackenzie.

Anyway I keep wondering is this part of being an adult or is that I can think clearly anymore.

I was pondering this as I was talking to the man from My Father's World for the third time today. My Father's World is the curriculum that I bought in May for homeschooling, after much time spent researching curriculums and talking with my husband. Then when we got accepted to the co-op, they were doing different material so I wanted to exchange my material for something that would be more suited to go along with co-op. So I called him up and he said I would be able to do that but to think on it and make sure it's what i wanted to do. So last week I finally made my decision to return it and called him up again to let him know I was sending it. He got the package on Friday. On Monday evening we decided we were not doing the co-op. So I was just going to let it ride and do what I had already committed to doing with the exchange. Then he called today to get more info and I mentioned that I had decided against the co-op. So I have now paid $30 to ship my curriculum that I purchased in May (saving on shipping because I bought it at a curriculum fair) back and forth to MO twice. That was a real way to save some $$.

1 comment:

Tiffany said...

The beauty of homeschooling is that we as the parent decide what is best for our kids and what just is not working. Changing your mind is not WRONG at are using your wisdom in decision making.
We are also going to try a co-op this year. Josiah and I decided to give it 2-3 weeks (they meet one day a week) and see how it goes. If it works...great. If not...great.
You are just going with the flow and trying new things to find what is best for y'all.
Keep up the good work! :)