Having children that live in another part of the world and not being able to get to them is one of the hardest things I have ever experienced.
I can't sugar coat it.
I vividly remember a few years ago when I was talking to adoptive mom and just not understanding how she could love kids that she hadn't met.
She missed them and included them in her everyday conversations.
God had already stirred my heart for adoption, but I didn't "get" it.
Now I do.
This is tough, tough stuff. And there are days when I don't feel so thankful for the trials. There are days when I want to run away from what God has called me to do. There are days when I think, I can't walk another step in this.
It's too hard.
And those are the days that God shows me once again, that He is faithful through it all.
Last week I was having a particularly ugly day. And a friend from our adoption board shared a message with me. Please take about 8 min and watch this. It was just the push I needed to keep going and remember that God is in this. These are HIS children.