I'm Forgiven

I think sometimes in our Christian walk we focus so heavily on what we need to give God: time, prayer, love, obedience, etc. that we forget to focus on what he's given to us. Those things are good and right and we need to focus on, love and obey our Lord.

At the same time, we need to rest in the promises that He has made to us.

Today I had a meeting that I have been dreading for a long time. It was a mediation with Mackenzie's birth father. This brings up so many memories for me. Ones that remind me of the life I used to have, before God saved me.

I got in the car and I was sick to my stomach.

Will I have to talk to him?
Will this be resolved today?
Why didn't he let Tim adopt her years ago?
Why do I have to re live my past?

And above all....
How can I honor the Lord and show His love in this?


This song was the first one that came on. Now, I have heard this song many times on the radio. But I had never really listened to it.

Well the past is playing with my head

And failure knocks me down again

I’m reminded of the wrong

That I have said and done

And that devil just wont let me forget

In this life

I know what I’ve been

But here in your arms

I know what I am

[chorus]

I’m forgiven

I’m forgiven

And I don’t have to carry

The weight of who I’ve been

Cause I’m forgiven

My mistakes are running through my mind

And I’ll relive my days, in the middle of the night

When I struggle with my pain, wrestle with my pride

Sometimes I feel alone, and I cry

In this life

I know what I’ve been

But here in your arms

I know what I am

[chorus]

I’m forgiven

I’m forgiven

And I don’t have to carry

The weight of who I’ve been

Cause I’m forgiven

When I don't fit in and I don’t feel like I belong anywhere

When I don’t measure up to much in this life

Oh, I’m a treasure in the arms of Christ ‘cause

[chorus]

I’m forgiven

I’m forgiven

And I don’t have to carry

The weight of who I’ve been

Cause I’m forgiven

The truth is, this battle is not mine. It is the Lord's. It is a battle between good and evil. And it was won a long time ago.

For the first two and a half hours, it didn't go well. I even texted Tim and told him that we were going to have to go to court. I put up a status on face book asking for prayers.


And something amazing happened.....


God changed his heart.

He became willing to cooperate. And we walked out an hour and a half later with an agreement that includes the words we have waited years for.

He is allowing Tim to adopt Mackenzie!!!


When I left I called one of the good friends that I had asked to pray. She asked me what time the change of heart took place. I looked back at my phone and I had texted Tim at 11:12. She said that she had gotten an overwhelming urgency to pray for me at 11:20. So while she strolled around Target she prayed.

At 11:30, the vibe in the mediation shifted and he had a change of heart.

Friends, I am here to remind you tonight that NOTHING is too big for our God. And He has already fought our battles and won!!

My sweet friend sent me this scripture tonight in response to hearing how awesome the meeting went.

"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor ANYTHING ELSE in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God." Romans 8:39