Saturday, November 7, 2009

Trials, they are a plenty

Well, let's just say we are in a "season of trials."

We went to the ENT and they said it will be about 6 weeks before they determine if Vivian's tonsils will come out, after allergy testing and medication. So...... 6 more weeks of making sure that she is breathing at night and making sure that she doesn't get sick and make her condition worse.
In addition to.....

-Leah who continues to not sleep well at night. By that I mean she gets up 5-6 night a week, resulting in a very sleepy and cranky girl every day at about 5pm. We have found out now that she too has obstructive sleep apnea and may need her tonsils out.

-Major issues on the business side of life. With very little notice, a major account lost due to no fault of our own, at the worst possible time of the year and this blow was provided by "friends" of ours.

- The main waterline to our house was run over and broken. Thankfully Tim was able to fix that pretty quickly.

-Week number two of sickness for me. Complete with ZERO voice which has been fun with 4 kids. Add this on top of my thyroid being off and you have a mama that can barely function.

Through all of this and more, I am being constantly reminded of the song that I sang at church after our son Jacob died. I have even arranged to sing it tomorrow at church. But I will most likely have to postpone, since I have no voice. Tell me that satan is not just working overtime on us. But I will cling to this song and others as I walk through these things that God has ordained for me. Pretty or Ugly, Fun or Not, God has ordained this path and I will walk through it. And try to learn everything that I can from Him while I am walking.

The pathway is broken
And The signs are unclear
And I don't know the reason why You brought me here
But just because You love me the way that You do
I'm gonna walk through the valley
If You want me to

Chorus:
Cause I'm not who I was
When I took my first step
And I'm clinging to the promise You're not through with me yet
so if all of these trials bring me closer to you
Then I will walk through the fire
If You want me to

It may not be the way I would have chosen
When you lead me through a world that's not my home
But You never said it would be easy
You only said I'd never go alone

So When the whole world turns against me
And I'm all by myself
And I can't hear You answer my cries for help
I'll remember the suffering Your love put You through
And I will go through the valley If You want me to
Cause when I cross over Jordan, I'm gonna scream, I'm gonna shout
I'm gonna look into your eyes and say, "You never let me down, so take me on the pathway that leads me home to you, and I will walk through the valley, If you want me to. "
by: Ginny Owens

5 comments:

Aimee said...

Oh, Audrey, I'm sorry. I'll be praying for you all!
As far as Vivian, you could try this place: http://www.atlantaent.com/meetourphysicians.php
That's where we went with Joel, and they were quick to take his adenoids and tonsils....

Aimee said...

We went to Dr. Smith.

PRRN said...

When times just seem very hard I always cling to Proverbs 3:5-6. Even though we don't understand it all, trusting in God is our only hope. It is always a time when God is drawing me even closer to Him. As I am down on my knees crying to Him. I am so glad you are keeping God first as you trust in Him. I love that song too!

Amy P said...

Sorry that last one is me - Amy P - not sure if I got that fixed or not. You know me with computers!

annie said...

I would LOVE to hear you sing this song some day. Maybe you can arrange to sing the Sunday we are staying with you guys? Just a thought. I miss your beautiful voice!