God is workin' it out!!

The start of 2009 has been the best start to a year that I have had in a long time. God has really changed my heart on some things and I am excited. "God is workin' it out!!" is going to be the theme for me this year. I started a Beth Moore bible study called "Esther" yesterday. And I am beyond ready for it. Not only has it been a while since I did a women's study but the way that God worked out for me to be there is just incredible!

A few weeks ago, my step-mom and I were talking about how I needed to get involved in a weekly study. One that requires homework to keep me in the Word daily. That has become a struggle for me. So I started looking for one. That same day I was at Hobby Lobby and I overheard a lady on the phone talking about her church doing a Beth Moore study. So when she got off the phone, I asked her about it. She told me where it was and it "happened" to be at the same church Madison was going to be taking a class at. Now, Madison taking a class anywhere, in and of itself, is a HUGE deal. For her and for me. But Tim and I had decided that we really needed to do it. God orchestrated it perfectly that she was able to get into the class of a woman who had been recommended as a teacher who would be great for Madison's attachment issues. Not only that, but Leah was also able to get into her own class at the same time as Madi due to someone cancelling.

So, I went home to check out the website and lo and behold, the bible study was offered the same day that the kids would be in their classes. At the same time! Tell me that's not a God thing.

Now let me say here that I don't leave my kids with people that I don't know well. NEVER do I do this. But like I said, God's workin' it out and who am I to argue?

So last week was the first week of classes for the kids. Madi cried and had to be pried from my leg but God gave me the strength to leave her. He placed a friend of mine right out in the hallway to distract my thinking and He gave Madison the strength to stop crying and enjoy herself. How awesome is that to know that something as insignificant in the universe is important to my God!!

Yesterday was the first day of my study. And the enemy was on it. It was a rough morning and Tim said to me later that he expected to get a call that said I was not going. But we pressed on. And praise the Lord, it was a great day. Madison didn't cry when I left her. I was able to find my way around this BIG church I am not familiar with at all. I left Vivian in her nursery class and she didn't cry. I went to the study and amidst the 150+ women there, immediately saw my friend and that helped me not feel so out of my element. I slipped out to pick Madi and Leah up from their classes and they were eager to go to their "fun" class while mommy was in study. God placed them in the same class which made the transition easier. I (being the nutso-mom that I am,) had gone down to meet their teacher before bible study, and she was expecting them to arrive late. Neither one of them cried when I left them!! I went back to study and hadn't missed any of the teaching. I absolutely LOVE the bible study. It's such a practical application of God's word for women. And I so thankful that God worked it so perfectly for me to be there and study His word.

2008 was hard year for my family. For me physically and emotionally, for our marriage, for the kids having a mom that was in a rut, etc. And I am finally in a place that I can honestly say I am thankful for it. God has done MIGHTY, MIGHTY things in my life and I can't wait to see what's up next.